I think the easiest way to lose something is to want it too badly.
*so i decide to learn to be patient.
OOooohhhhhhh!!! that's the hardest thing to do in life for now, maybe... X((((((((
But once again, this is really not just about me.
so please, please, please myself.
learn to be patient.
and yes, i'd rather find lots of useful things to distract this -too badly too think about- stuff.
The good you do today, will often be forgotten. Do good anyway.