I don't want to say anything

I lost word
I lost mind

I mean I don't wanna talk
I don't wanna think

Because no matter what hapenned good I'm doing
or the better i'm doing
even the best I've maybe done
I was wrong

I have much good argument
Strong enough maybe
But i don't want to make that
Coz' I wanna know directly
Are they thinking and try to understand
more about me
even when there's no reason
from me?

I know I'm probably wrong
I know I'm not perfectly right
I know I probably cause a trouble
I know I'm not supposed to speak whateva excuse
I know
I know

And those make me
talkless
wordless
and just this

I don't want to measure what 'good' I've done
what sacrifice I've made
how many people I've thought and cared about
No
I'm doing and being all
not for an acceptance
or flowery appreciation

Just
how can i still wrong
when i think i've done good
in a right way

But thanks I've got this cold
So it is ordinary
to snot among people
and to have these watery eyes


Coz i'm absolutely
lost word
of these

The good you do today, will often be forgotten. Do good anyway.
----> and this closing quote....
i don't know what more to say .....